Temporary Boundaries

Last night in an adventure in consciousness, a distinct awareness permeated the experience.

The shadow self or unconscious self has long been associated with the feminine, in her association with the serpent.

In it's essence the serpent has had a dual role of either providing wisdom to man, or being the source of our greatest fears. It was the serpent that was eating from the tree of knowledge. It was the serpent that told Eve of the fruit.

In last night's endeavors, it became more apparent that just as each day holds the seed of the day's night within, each new territory in consciousness explored, contains within it, the seed of the dark self, the dark star, fear, self-doubt, worry, anxiety, dread, destruction and chaos that may potentially manifest in the unknown.

I found myself observing a current state of mind and then finding tremendous love for it. I would follow that love, peace and acceptance deeper, to find that it was another sun of radiant consciousness and life.

After a brief period dwelling within this place, I would get the thought, "Is this it or is there something more beyond this sun."

The moment this thought would arise, I would be aware of a shrinking or distancing from the previous sun, as my mind ventured out into the void. At a certain period out in the void, I would get a wave of fear that questioned whether maybe I had ventured too far away from an already abundant place of light and love. I would wonder, "Maybe the last place was enough."

After a brief period of time, I'd realize I was indeed quite content where I had been and did not need to seek any further for another sun, or another modality of consciousness. To do so would create more time, another dark realm to try and explore.

My consciousness would return to it's previous sun, with an intense love and appreciation for realizing it was enough. That feeling of, "I have found enough or am enough," had such a distinctly peaceful feeling to it...that I'd realize the me that was originally observing had now began to glow so brightly, that I had become the *next* sun of consciousness that I was originally seeking. It was only after I stopped seeking or expecting one to be there, that one would illuminate.

In many iterations of this sequence, it became apparent to me that there are archetypes of consciousness involved with this expansion/contraction process. If you were to follow Ufological studies, you'd know a great deal about the serpent beings spoken of by people like David Icke and the Cassioapeans. If you were to follow the synchromystic studies of people like Goro Adachi, David Kotze, Micheal Tsarion and Soundlessdawn, you'd realize that there is again an intense connection between the human state of consciousness and the serpentine energy. Religions have long discussed the role of Satan as the serpentine tormentor of the soul where Gnostics have believed Lucifer to be the brightest star in the sky, enlightening man. Quetzalcoatl was belived by the Aztecs to be the flying serpent god associated with Venus that restored mankind. The far east believed in serpent gods or dragons that roamed the heavens. And even within our bodies, is believed to be a powerful serpentine energy coiled at the base of the spine known as Kundalini.

With this said, during the contraciton/expansion process of consciousness I became supremely aware of the importance of such beings A) guarding higher knowledge and B) sharing higher knowledge. It became clear that in each moment by existing, I was the creator of both a light of consciousness and a realm of beings that would seek to consume that consciousness. They did and do so until such a point in which I am ready for the information.

This moment typically came with accepting myself as I am and finding love for that state of being. It carried profound relief and joy to realize that it is vital for the growth and progress of my consciousness that this serpentine energy exists in this manner. I did not need to fight for their knowledge or try and take it from them. Rather I needed to find my own path through love and acceptance of the now, within.

Prior to realizing this, as stated before, I would find myself out in the middle of a dark void, quite terrified of death, terrified of failure, terrified of demons or negative entities, or terrified with fear. I'd realize that who I was before was quite sufficient and radiant with life. There was no need to push out into that void to find the answers. I am enough. In realizing that this resistance helps one see that they are enough, I suddenly had a tremendous sense of love for the void, the resistance and the guardians.

Once I no longer sought to eliminate that resistance, and instead found love for it's role and purpose. All resistance illuminated. All of that fear fled. At this point I realized that the heavy cloak of darkness was the serpentine energy above, around and within me. However, at another level, this terrifying tormentor is quite brilliant. They are brilliant from feeding off all of the vital knowledge and energy of being above and were not going to let me endeavor any further unless I would ultimately accept their existance and not seek to eliminate them. It is for them to eat first. Each moment is a moment of saying, "Yes" to their presence. By making no enemies, one has no enemies.

My love for their role and what is was their only guarantee that I posessed acceptance of their existance while at the same time, fully well knowing that they were tormenting pieces of myself that were at lower levels.

All this is to say, the clearest path between suns, and between darkspaces that are held within each moment, is love for what is and who you are at this very moment. In this journey, you find more love than you ever thought you could possibly feel and in the process find more dark, fearsome places within than you knew existed.

But in saying this, my parting thought is: it is quite worth it.