I am...okay

How many times a day do you spend reminding yourself of what you are not okay with?

Maybe you're not okay with your job, the way the world is going, the types of people that you have in your life. Maybe you're not okay with what happened in the past or some worries you have about the future. This list will go on and on.

As a game, try spending time being okay with the "is-ness" of your life right now. Rather than worrying about if you are good enough or going to make it out ahead, be okay with not being more. In fact, contemplate being okay with right now being the last thought you ever have or the last smell you'll ever come across. Maybe right now, you can be okay with hearing the sound of the birds outside for the last time, or seeing a new day unfold for the last time.

In doing so, take particular notice of the spaces between these thoughts and what may initiate new thoughts to occur.

You just might find that it is fear of change, fear of death or fear of this being all there is to know.

Could life and all of it's complexity really be this moment and no..."more" moments? Can you be okay with having fear within and there being no "more" to distract you or alleviate your fears?

Can you be okay with this life containing all the love that you will ever get to experience? Was the quality of the love you gave and that you received enough? Do you need...*more* ?

And suppose your answer to these questions is "yes!" "I really do need more. I am not okay with things how they are. They should be different and then I could be at peace. "

Can you observe that desire for more and be okay with it?

You may just find, you are okay with a great deal. That everything that you can see, smell, touch, taste, hear, or think is at some level possible because at a previous point, you chose to be in the situation you are in now. All the details both good and bad about what might be the outcome of past decisions, you are experiencing now. You might even argue that wanting more, will only lead to knowing there's more your want.

You may even come to the realization that there is the part of you that wants more and the part that wants nothing at all. It is completely full, satisfied, at ease, and at peace with everything it has learned and experienced and there is no "more" to want.

It does want or need more but if more were to occur it would be okay by it. It would not mind more, but it does not seek it.

Curious.